Confused

Assalamu'alaykum...Tadaima...Minna-san ogenki desu ka???Hisashiburi ne...

What is this feeling??
Like I don't know about myself anymore.
I'm really confused.
And I don't know what should I do.

What's the point of being here?
What is "belief" anyway??

I can't stand it anymore.
I can't face it anymore.
I can't hold it anymore.

What's the point?
What's for?

An ultimate anger...

Assalamu'alaykum...Tadaima...Minna-san ogenki desu ka???Hisashiburi ne...

Konnichiwa...
The truth is I really want to leave this place.
This is full of bullshit!!!

And I don't even know what the hell am I doing right here???
I don't get it at all...
I just want to be that!!!
My dreams...

Then I realize, I'm just a little bit too afraid to say "I DON'T WANT IT AT ALL"!!!!

People search for a place to fit in. I do too. But I can't find a place to fit in, neither a place that fit me in...

I don't know what I'm supposed to do!
I'm being crazy...
I can't stand anymore. I can't face it anymore.
ENOUGH!!!
This is ridiculous!

This place is full of lying.
This place is full of hypocrisy.
This place is full of inconsistency.

How can I live in it???

I just wanna go home for a bit.
Just take some rest and then I'll give my best for my dreams...
Get the hell out of here...

Wassalammu'alaykum...

Anxiety

Assalamu'alaykum...Tadaima...Minna-san ogenki desu ka???Hisashiburi ne...

GOD!!!
What I've done these two whole years???
What I've been thinking up??

How could I do something like that???
How can I fix it???

How about my future??
Truthfully, I don't really think of them seriously.
I just think about something that hard to do.
Even I know that my effort and my work is not enough to make it into reality.
How can I fix it?

How can I be so rude???
This is all about my future.
My own future.

What should I do now?
I don't really wanna lose those things.
I don't really wanna lose my dreams.

I'm scared.
So scared.

Wassalammu'alaykum...