Anxiety

Assalamu'alaykum...Tadaima...Minna-san ogenki desu ka???Hisashiburi ne...

GOD!!!
What I've done these two whole years???
What I've been thinking up??

How could I do something like that???
How can I fix it???

How about my future??
Truthfully, I don't really think of them seriously.
I just think about something that hard to do.
Even I know that my effort and my work is not enough to make it into reality.
How can I fix it?

How can I be so rude???
This is all about my future.
My own future.

What should I do now?
I don't really wanna lose those things.
I don't really wanna lose my dreams.

I'm scared.
So scared.

Wassalammu'alaykum...